iM thE waY i aM... loVe mE oR hatE mE!

2007-06-12T03:19:00.000-07:00

night

人往往为了一时的冲动而向所爱得人许下完成不了的诺言。
但听者的心却早已被甜言蜜语给收买了。直到一切结束后才明白爱的度蜜月期间已经像双方挥手说再见了！留下的只是一些擦不去的回忆。。。至少是快乐的回忆！=）
难道就是我们所为的爱吗？

Im sure everyone been through that, as in what's written above... yet all of us still repeat the same mistake over and over again... Well, this is part and parcel of life.

Sweetie,

you're a GOLD, you deserve a GOLD SMITH who cherishes you and knows how much you worth. For your information you're way to good for a BLACK SMITH like him!
YOU KNOW WE ALL LOVE YOU! MUACKIES!

(X(00)X)

2007-06-05T08:53:00.000-07:00

Night

It kills to be awake when you know you are so tired and need some sleep badly. No coaxing or hush hush would help. Sad case. CAN SOMEONE PLEASE HYPNOTISE ME?! MAKE ME SLEEP!!

My life in the past was to do my school stuff, be on the phone with my boy then at nine and go straight to bed by ten, all right at times i sleep early as in early wee hours because i talked, weeped and pissed him off all at the same time.=) What a nice girlfriend! haha!

All right i think im starting to feel tired, good night earthlings!=)

(X(00)X)

2007-06-05T02:05:00.000-07:00

night

My bunch of crack pots in W24J. certainly not full strength! 13/25
That's my favourite facilitator, Mister Kang!
since it was the last day before the start of two week of fat shedding/ gaining holidays, we decided to have a few shots! (evidence that we are a bunch of school lovers! we did not skip the last module)

Here's the first shot!

This is the second shot!=)

Third shot the crazy shot!
damn! lovely crack pots did not show their ultimate potential of behaving like one!

My Communication module mates

enterprise mates without jing kang and shafiq!
aww... fats on my face.

(X(00)X)

2007-05-26T03:30:00.000-07:00

night

We cancelled the weekly crappers hang out session today.
awww... most of them are busy. =(
Becs kept her promise of meeting up with me and cherie.
here we are in the Galilee's cafe in Rp's libary.

This was what i ordered. Not appetising

After crapping, 168ed back for our certificates.

changed our mind because we couldnt make it in time for certificate.
headed for Tampines Mall
window shopped! *SALES everywhere*
Stopped at Swensen for a yogurt friz session.
Sweet lady making Cherie's yogurt friz.

while waiting we took some shots.

my retarded shot with becs

Cherie's weird friz while becs stared at the various fruit balls

the different flavours

cherie's yellow, becs's light orange and my pink friz.

mine

After yogurting, we took their balloon to relive our childhood moments

Cherie and becs each has got tummy of a MOO MOO
They bought fried mushrooms and went on for shi ling's finger food.

Becs with the bubble tea

ME! with the balloon. Im on strict diet! ha!
Wee~ i did not give into their temptation!
so proud of myself!=)

After that we headed home straight!
one last picture taken after sending cherie across the road!

(X(00)X)

2007-05-18T00:11:00.000-07:00

night

If the hero, never comes to you
If you need someone, you're feeling blue
If you wait for love, and you're alone
If you call your friends, nobody's home
You can run away, but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I'll show you there's a destiny
The best things in life, they are free
But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do
If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven, where we'll go
If heaven is, a million years away
Oh just call me and I'll make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay by your sideI promise you, I'll never hide

time and time again i reassured myself.
over and over again i let myself down.
so tell me who's shoulder can i cry on tonight?

(X(00)X)

2007-05-06T23:15:00.000-07:00

night

did some catching up with my besties.
its the best remedy when i feel ultra lonely.
well, not in the sense that im being out casted in school.
more like i haven't seen the one which can match up with the weird personality of mine.
mind you! once again let me emphasize on the word WEIRD.

i hate commitment.
i always thought so.
for a moment i don't.
i know i contradicted myself.
Ha! Thanks to my sweet sweet discovery.
a stack of letters and a small little picture.

as mentioned earlier on.
INDEED IM WEIRD!
(X(00)X)

2007-04-28T22:52:00.000-07:00

Night

Random post,

The most recent shot. Peiwen and Me

Me and Boon Kiat

during Chinese New Year celebration!

On our way to work!

Me and Sya's after work

Ami hadi hyekal and sya and me out at wild wild wet!

Me and Becs hanging out at Central Park.

(X(00)X)

2007-04-25T23:30:00.000-07:00

night

where's the pact?

(X(00)X)

2007-04-24T23:52:00.000-07:00

night

its not easy posting every single entry.
i have been wanting to blog all day long but at times i just feel that i need courage to blog it out.
perhaps its that timid side of me that refuses to face what i have in mind.
as times goes by, blogging seems to be the hardest thing to be fulfilled.
it seems that the older i get, the harder it gets for me to unwind my bottled up feelings.

mei:
for a moment i feel stark. there isnt any courage for me to pluck.
this affair of the heart seems to be killing me.

for a moment i yearned for something which is simply out of my reach.
where's the pact we made years ago?

im mentally drained i can't even recall what i wished for when i saw shooting star that day.

(X(00)X)

2007-04-12T00:00:00.000-07:00

night

bb im not giving in tonight!
i need to know if i should be heading left or right!
dont leave me feeling stark.
tell me things which led on to a lovely spark!

(X(00)X)

2007-04-04T19:32:00.001-07:00

morning

when will that day ever come when our mouth speak nothing but the truth?
when will that day ever come when our ears learn to pick out the emotions behind every single conversation we make?
when will that day ever come when our face show signs of dismay or happiness in what our mouth and ear fail to detect?
when will that day come?

speechless.
it kills to hear explainations and apologies.
save it for someone else.
clear my doubts.
what kind of friend am i to you?
how close are we?
promises are meant for publication never for fulfillment.
(X(00)X)

2007-02-15T02:02:00.000-08:00

night

my woman instinct failed to secure my cute belief this time. it literally got me feeling down and surprised.
it just like running into a blind corner at a high speed not thinking about the consequences and how disloyal lady luck can be! how could i jump into such conclusion that everything would turn out the way i expect?

lesson learnt: the only certainty about life is, it is full of uncertainties. i'll try to keep a distance.

(X(00)X)

2007-02-08T04:14:00.000-08:00

night

6th feb 3pm.
smudged eyeliner and unslightly trails of different toning of foundation. words were left untold despite being asked repeatedly what happened. it all happened for one reason. i hope the hugs i gave did the talking. i couldnt think of anything other than that at that point in time.
here's a little secret! i came back in the night because i wanted to give that one last hug.
specially for you.

(X(00)X)

2007-01-28T01:50:00.000-08:00

night

a ordeal that i went through for more than 365 days.
you're neither my friend nor my foe.
so whats with that sudden appearance? was it destruction or some worth remembering memories given by you?
you should know better. if you're staring at the big screen now,
no worries just want to let you know, im not sending you on a guilt trip.

(X(00)X)

2007-01-26T01:00:00.000-08:00

night

pardon me i've lost touch with the outer world ever since i've been working. wee!!
yes! no life! im basically like a alien! i know nothing about the upcoming movies or shows!
ha! that's pretty embarassing! 100 over emails yet to be checked. im basically very busy.
i haven't done this and i haven't done that!

p.s sorry darlings, dears, sweeties or whatever you claim to be!
PLEASE MESSAGE ME IF POSSIBLE BECAUSE MY HP IS IN THE LOCKER ALL THE TIME!
IMMA BUSY LADY! WORKING 24/7... ha! I CANT RETURN YOUR CALLS! SORRY!!!
now im starting to wonder if anyone bothers to check out my blog which has been rotting for decade!

to fukus!! muacks! i miss you guys! <3!

(X(00)X)

2006-12-15T12:35:00.000-08:00

sunny

those who mind dont even matter
those who matters wouldnt even mind.

(X(00)X)

2006-12-14T18:45:00.000-08:00

evening

i've been becoming very lazy when it comes to updating blog!
here you go!

(X(00)X)

2006-12-14T00:40:00.000-08:00

night

sometimes it hard to open up.
i want to! so much so badly!=(
its best to zip it up!
but i'll be fine.
(X(00)X)

2006-12-12T22:48:00.000-08:00

Night

Boonkiat is such a funny fellow!
he makes me laugh when i dont intend to.
click on the following picture and read it.
and you would understand why. i just cant stop laughing!

all right enough of that! he irritated me with his alien language.
i seriously cant stand guys who type like this!
boon kiat was trying to irritate the hell out of me!
and he suceed! sigh! i dont understand how can one have the patient to type like this!
well, boon kiat hates this nonsensical typing too!
now i know he was looking high and low for someone to agree with him!
HE HAS FOUND THE ONE!=) me..

(X(00)X)

2006-12-08T16:30:00.000-08:00

sunny

看我满怀理想,往这世界里面闯.站在风大的地方让它吹去一身风霜。
管它人來人往!多么地反复无常一天一点新希望躲开忧虑到处飞翔！
拥抱阳光，我的心和你一起奔放. 沒人能躲在我的前方路越难走我越坚强！
看看我不平凡的眼光, 早已经不再恐惧悲伤心中充滿无限梦想！
阳光撒在脸上,你的爱让我茁壯. 看一看我的模样除却寂寞早就已经不一样。
留在我的身旁陪着我编织幻想! 享受作梦的疯狂就算孤单那又何妨?

hug the sunshine!=)
(X(00)X)

2006-12-07T00:13:00.000-08:00

night

<3

(X(00)X)

2006-11-27T23:05:00.000-08:00

its raining

i love the rain. it makes me feel like snuggling up with someone close.<3

(X(00)X)

2006-11-17T23:19:00.000-08:00

night.

i wished
- i could show you what you meant to me then.
- i had spent more time with you,
- you did not had boring afternoons.
- make you smile instead of getting you worried 24/7.

i wished!!! i wished!!! i wished!!!

(X(00)X)

2006-11-11T22:05:00.000-08:00

night.

some thoughts are better left unsaid afterall they are thoughts.
they are meant to be kept deep down your mind.

distances can be measured by kilometres, metres or even centimetres, yards or whatever crap! but not for now because it's being measured by how many time heart(s) shatter(s).

(X(00)X)

2006-11-01T08:16:00.000-08:00

night.

Smile and everything will be fine. Isn't that living in denial? But have you ever wonder, it makes you feel worse just to smile when you don't mean to? Or am I just emotionally unbalanced?

I dreamt, a dream that triggered my emotions. You shouldn't have appeared in my dream.
Spare me from this misery. Mankinds are just so hard to comprehend. I seriously don't know what's wrong with me, or what went wrong in the first place.

I just don't feel good today.
Im going under!
(X(00)X)

2006-10-21T10:39:00.000-07:00

its morning...

through that naked eye of mine i saw my crazy behaviour in you.

first you would try to fool every single one that you're doing fine.
drop that little mask of yours and you would know it was purely a lie.
you started tearing ever since that fatal night. you wouldn't want to hold back.
because that's the only moment when you can actually be yourself without hiding your emotions.
no matter how hard someone tries to knock some sense into you,
only you can fight off that heart wrenching feeling.
the only thing that helps you along the way is time.
it heals all wound!=)
pick yourself up and you would realise its not the end of the world.
you'll be fine! im pretty sure!=)

(X(00)X)

2006-10-09T20:45:00.000-07:00

night.

a gift that i caught me unexpected.
sudden yet sweet moment that managed to find a place in my heart.
leaving me smiling like a silly girl!
thanks! you're always so thoughtful!
you got me hypnotised!

(X(00)X)

2006-09-21T20:38:00.000-07:00

night.

my heart hurts as i know sooner or later we're going to part.
how i wish that day would never come.
it shatters my little heart afterall we have all been friends for at least 4 years.
it made me realised how different would my life be without the great fives.
the video bought back alot of memories.
i couldnt help but cried. it may seem silly.
but i never thought that the video would create such a great impact on me.

I LOVE YOU GUYS.
i know it sounds kind of cliche but i mean it when i say this.
我不想在最后一分钟才让你们知道我真得很珍惜我们的友谊。
(X(00)X)

2006-09-19T14:50:00.000-07:00

afternoon

i still adore ex boy bands!=)
the way they harmonise makes me go gaga!
im in the mood for christmas!

(X(00)X)

2006-09-17T21:10:00.000-07:00

night

star shine through the sky
thousand lights sparkling the dark gloomy night
star bright light the sky
smiling and beaming with twinkling eyes
mama told me stars will bring me good luck
if i could glance upon the first star tonight
cup my hands praying hard my wish will come true
lucky star grant my wish be my guide
star shine through sky sparkling the night
brilliant diamond like
lucky star warms my heart brighten my life.

(X(00)X)

2006-09-10T23:15:00.000-07:00

evening.

sometimes i dont know why guys like comparison.
its so weird. im not against the opposite sex.
but sometimes their level of confidence just turn me off.

all i need was a listening ear not making nasty comments?
well if you think you're way above him, think twice.
your ego is way too much for you to handle. Hello Mister!!
now i'll think thrice when it comes to talking to you.
i hate to say this, you can never be on par with him.

(X(00)X).

2006-09-05T23:53:00.000-07:00

night.

i was smiling to myself in my heart when i was drawing my name on the sand.
being at the beach sure brings back some good old flashbacks.
it reminded me
-the day when i sat there with someone looking at the sky when night fell.
-looking at the ships horning here and there.
-the day when i still had someone to rely on.
-the lovey dovey feeling! =)

i enjoyed myself today!=)

(X(00)X)

2006-08-29T22:52:00.000-07:00

night.

is that all you can give?

(X(00)X)

2006-08-24T23:07:00.000-07:00

its night.

she looked into the mirror. that wasnt her reflection that she saw.
eye playing tricks on her? or was it due too much crying till she couldnt tell the differences between real and fake?
how could this be? who took away the confidence that she once had?
why did this happened? no one knows because she isnt sure of it either.
she's lost.

(X(00)X)

2006-08-13T17:40:00.000-07:00

afternoon.

zhou gong refused to have a game of chess with me. perhaps he thinks that im bad at it.
who knows? when i finally entered dreamland, i got entertained visually and this was something i wouldn't subscribe for in my sleeping package! well, i dont welcome such entertainment-- bad dream! i dont need such entertainment too!
thanks to it i stayed up all night thinking what happened to that person in my dream.
i was kind of sure when morning arrives, things would turn out bad for that person and me. i know i sound pessimistic but i cant help it. i was right! something bad did happened. im always accurate at making such guesses. how i wish i was wrong.
sigh~ now i've got the kick to stop myself from going online too often.
perhaps i might not even go online.
at least i found the reason to get my engine started for the studies.

(X(00)X)

2006-08-09T11:32:00.000-07:00

its morning.

i was blog hopping when i saw this particular entry by my crazy pal.
it made me cried. it makes me think so much about what i've done in the past
things i took for granted. when things just poof into thin air and halo starts to appear on top of them leaving you feeling guilty and regret.
whatever left behind is nothing but vague memories.
sigh! you do ever reminisce?

(X(00)X)

2006-08-06T23:20:00.000-07:00

its night..

i was packing my small cupboard, i came across this stack of love letters.
which i have been looking for since... cant recall! EUREKA!
Love letters! yup! love letters!! its the evidence of showing love is in the air!
i know love letter seems kind of ancient! but it just shows how romantic can one be!
some think that writing love letters is a waste of time!
'words can't express how much you meant to me...' what an excuse!=X
well, i think it's so sweet to have your partner penning down on how much you mean to him or her! being mushy is an art! turning a piece of blank A4 paper into something magical which makes your heart melt! (perhaps such wonderful effect only happens on people like me?)
thanks to the hard work of cute little cupid(s)!

(X(00)X)

2006-08-04T00:30:00.000-07:00

its dark!

depressed! what the hell am i doing?
im sad! seriously sad! she's not helping me in any ways!
i going crazy!='(

(X(00)X)

2006-07-30T23:30:00.000-07:00

its afternoon...

things can be pretty bad at times! sigh!
last wednesday i gave up studying for my chemistry and physics test.
i couldnt understand a single thing that i read. mental block? stress?
i dont know. its driving me crazy.
i spent the whole night crying. i cried for not putting enough effort in my studies.
i cried for every single thing that shattered my weak little heart in the past.
too tired i fell asleep without knowing. and best of all without flipping through a single page on both the textbooks. i ought to kill myself. i should have known better having tiny bits of knowledge on both the subjects wouldnt do me any good.
i know im going to fail both the papers. im feeling really depressed!
worst of all im missing him out of no reason.
(X(00)X)

2006-07-26T22:37:00.000-07:00

its evening.

sad! im going to miss Mr Lim and Miss Lim!
im going to miss the time we get to play floorball like mad!
the time when i get to chit chat like nut.
miss miss lim's teaching and mr lim for his blur look! haha!

haha! i still remember the day when they first came and joined us for pe lessons.
they were kind of quiet looking so fierce. they were standing at one corner when Mr Golf was telling us rules on how to play floorball, at that moment i thought 5N1 was going to have a hard time during Pe. soon we got into groups and started playing!
and that was when i get to speak to miss lim. she wasnt as scary as i thought!
as for mr lim, i didnt get to speak to him as he was on the other side of the parade square!
slowly i got to know them better when we played floorball. BANANA! CHONGSTERS!
all the funny and crapy stuff!
thanks for the chocolate! you guys would be greatly missed! all the best!
muackies and huggies!

oh na na! its time to shed off some fats!=X

(X(00)X)

2006-07-26T00:00:00.000-07:00

its night...

im smiling! cant you see? well im sure you cant, UNLESS you're peeping at me!
eek! what the na na!=X had lots of fun playing floorball!
IM IN LOVE WITH IT! all right! though i dont get to come in contact with the ball much often.
haha! i had fun being the goal keeper! i was busily chitting chatting with WenWen and Mr Lim who was helping to 'get rid' of the ball before i started to get too stressed and excited over a pathetic plastic ball! (for the Lydia's sake! i started screaming even when the plastic ball was metres away! that was how excited and stressed i was!) haha!
yup! Im a goal keeper who does not act like how a goal keeper should! oops! im still excited by the fact that i played floorball today!
cant you see everything ends with exclaimation mark!!! yeah!

(X(00)X)

2006-07-23T23:07:00.000-07:00

its night!

all right! thanks to Kelvin my big brother i got it done!
im happy!=) thanks!

(X(00)X)

2006-07-22T23:57:00.004-07:00

late at night

i used to think everything seems meaningless if i am doing it all alone.
well now i dont! infact i enjoy spending time with myself.=)
signs of depression/being a loner/independent?!
im not sure either. im just rediscovering myself and im loving it!

(X(00)X)

2006-07-15T20:59:00.000-07:00

gloomy night

sometimes i just dont understand how one can change 360 degree.
unbelievable. have faith in yourself and trust yourself.
you can do it! i'll pray for you.

i watched POTC today. it was GREAT!
aww... johnny depp looked great with the eye liner and shadow!
went to take a look at the newbies of MC at century square
i got called up on stage for some games session.
NO THANKS to cherie peiwen and jasmine.=X
and THANKS for volunteering me because i won the game!=) haha!
muacks!

(X(00)X)

2006-07-12T22:45:00.000-07:00

night...

where's the motivation?
hardly any.

(X(00)X)

2006-07-09T00:27:00.000-07:00

Night...

how could this ever happen to me?
knowing the truth just breaks my heart.
did you just hear the shattering sound?=(
i guess it was His way of showing me things arent as simple as i thought.
Gullible. perhaps its just the way i am. i choose to see things the way i want instead of facing up to reality.
now that i've seen reality, i ought to change.
(X(00)X)

2006-07-05T21:34:00.000-07:00

its night...

life is short... 'move on' that's what people always say.
first of all how many actually did that? or rather does anyone know how to do that? born with the ability to speak yet nothing that come out from their mouths make sense! their actions simply contradict with what they claimed! sometimes others just dont understand how you feel.
its either they are DUMB if not you're the one who's DUMB! you would soon realise you're the ODDIE living on the ever changing half rotten ball known as the Earth!

when people dont see things the way you do. they label you the LONER. no point making them understand you. the harder you try the more they think that you're weird.
making you the outcast, suffering in silence. whats wrong with those IMBECILE?
acting as though they own the world? it hurts to see one whom i treasure being treated like a rubbish! it pains me to see this happening. dont ever tell me im over reacting!
wait till you get a taste of it.

i'll pray.
be there for you as promised.

(X(00)X)

2006-06-25T22:36:00.000-07:00

its night...

june holiday went on holiday...
im going back to school and i'll only be back at 3.45pm or even later...
well they hinted long tym ago 'junyuan our second home'...
i guess its really my SECOND HOME now...
wouldnt it be better if all of us get to camp in school?
im sure the response would great and no one would dread about it!
yeah? haha!

well... im pretty surprised by the way some Libra react to certain things...
i guess im surprised cause im the odd Libra...
YEAH! im proud to be the one and only ODDIE! who cares...
its tym to do some serious reflection...

still as sweet as ever...=)
(X(00)X)

2006-06-11T18:30:00.002-07:00

its late afternoon...

alot of thing has been happening lately... im like corpse...
even if im not... im behaving like one at the moment...
a corpse has got no feeling... it wont shed a tears for anything...
i havent shed a single tears for anyone ever since i put a fullstop to my love journey...(all right! i did shed just two tears both from my right eyes... thats all...)
i guess it the best way to prevent myself from showing my weakness...
thats the best excuse i can find to defend myself for behaving in such a deadly manner...

have you ever seen a girl who goes 'hahaha' all day long even when her msn nick reflects that she's sad? im such a weird girl full of craps...
it all takes tym... i know... perhaps i should stay this way...
i guess im not that crazy as i used to be anymore... its not that bad afterall...

im holding on to the belief that you mean it when i asked you on that day...
Silence. i <3>
(X(00)X)

2006-06-11T18:30:00.001-07:00

2006-06-11T18:30:00.000-07:00

2006-05-28T00:22:00.000-07:00

its night...

i thank lovely cupid for shooting the arrow of <3 at me...
i never regret knowing you... for you showered me with love and care...
i was like a princess... you talk to me on phone daily...
you sang me sweet lovely songs... always so blur... making me laugh...
the huhs and the nothings...=)
you took the trouble to make honey lemon drink for me daily...
walked me to school... walked me home... you took the initiative to message me when you know you couldnt meet me... waited for me when im late... listened to my craps...
letting me win all the tym...
i didnt dare to cry out... i think i was stupid enough to hide my emotions instead of letting them out... i didnt want you to hear me cry...
i regretted not giving you that one last peck on your cheek when i could...
thanks for the three words and the last three kisses you gave over the phone...
when will i ever hear and receive them again? i dont know...
but its ok... as i believe you mean it when you said those three words...
at least it ended in a fairytale manner... im happy because you love me!
study hard! we'll do well for our examinations..

still... sarang heyo!
(X(00)X)

2006-05-20T20:59:00.000-07:00

its evening...

it started with a box of rotten strawberries.
the taste of love is just so great!
unique.

he played the piano and sang for me.
my heart melted.
i love him to the molten core!

erm... i have no idea what is this... but since i have been tagged by my friends... shall do it!

INSTRUCTIONS:
1) The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different qualities of his/her perfect lover.
2) Mention the gender of his/her perfect lover
3) Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
4) If u are tagged the 2nd time, NO NEED TO DO IT AGAIN.
5) Have fun doing it.

1)
- lovely
- caring
- great voice
- plays piano
- humble
- daring
- creative
- romantic
(haha! i had not problem tackling this question...)

2)
male

3)
- peiwen
- yihao
- jasmine
- wenhui
- rebecca
- qianying
- guixiong
- faiza

(X(00)X)

2006-05-12T22:02:00.000-07:00

its evening...

shy and lovable blends so well...
sing to me and play the chords...
your smile does a thousand wonder...
im miles away from my worries with you around...
i love guy with musical talent!

(X(00)X)

2006-05-11T17:58:00.000-07:00

its afternoon!!

guess what?! im here at peiwens house...(im blogging... shes busily searching for her stupid phone...)
finally i can breathe! i have been burning midnight oil every single night! hitting the bed after 2am! just watched Exorcist with peiwen... theres one scene that made me laughed like hell...
well it was supposed to be scary... but i ended up laughing like mad! because PEIWEI got so freaked out by the little girl vomitting green slimy substance... she clinged onto me like a bear!oh man!
yeah! drank bubble tea... so sweet!=) we went NTUCing... tibits all the way throughout the vcd session... yeah! its holiday all the way till wednesday!=) i love it...
oh mummy i didnt dream of anyone last night!=(

last of all!!! i want a guy like cao ge... so talented!
(X(00)X)

2006-05-10T19:17:00.000-07:00

its evening...

i had this weird dream... it seemed so real...
perhaps its hinting me something... if only it was real...
it reminded me of those days when i was in sec two...
the very first experience i had... brings back good memory...
am i yearning for it? i dont know... if only i continue locking myself in the dream!
you are just so great boy.. seriously dont mind about not waking up! =)

(X(00)X)

2006-05-03T20:52:00.000-07:00

its night!

告訴你我不是一個會認輸的人
但我不得不承認曾跌倒失敗　
也曾經走在陰霾不看　
不聽　不說　不笑傻傻的發呆難道我準被打敗
我幸運有你　使我的生命充滿希望
從今以後不再觸動生氣走開　
所有人的期待讓我站起來　
甩掉了阻礙　從今全打開我終於明白
fly 盡全力再飛起來沒有後悔不後退　
我讓你刮目相看Just fly 向世界證明我存在　
努力過的汗水　不斷灌溉美好未來.

(X(00)X)

2006-05-03T18:52:00.000-07:00

its evening...

my practical papers were a big boo boo! oh man!
too caught up with my chemicals till i burnt a hole on my chemistry paper...
lucky! it wasnt that bad... i didnt finish the papers... aww! i'll try harder for other subjects!

(X(00)X)

2006-04-27T21:16:00.000-07:00

its night...

HAPPY 17 th BIRTHDAY!! JASMINE AND KE XIN!!

ate seoul today.. so full! im happy! i'll update more soon!

(X(00)X)

2006-04-25T20:51:00.000-07:00

its night!!

why?! why the hell must i be reminded of it?!
this feeling is so sucky! oh man! who the hell knows how i feel... unless you went through what i did!
horrible feeling that refuses to let me off!! i cant get rid!!
i got over it! i seriously got over it! havent i? LYDIA WHAT THE SHIT ARE YOU DOING THEN?! WHY THE F DID YOU ALLOW IT TO TAKE CONTROL OF YOUR MIND!
it ws merely a dream! a stupid dream and brought it all back... the pain that was too much for me to bear!!
how happy can i get... im always at the losing end! im not weak! IM SO DAMN BLOODY SICKENING WEAK! i swear for goodness sake i didnt even recall the day and date till the dream came!

(X(00)X)

2006-04-16T12:45:00.000-07:00

its afternoon

what a strange belief... she was biting the slippers like nobodys business...
hilarious! she believes that by biting the slippers it wont gives you any trouble when you wear it!
so be it if it buys you a sense of security... what a hectic schedule today!
im rushing off to hospital!
dang! i <3 talking to deng lin...

(X(00)X)

2006-04-15T23:54:00.000-07:00

its evening...

oops! i was late today! haha! i was supposed to meet yan ling (yup ling) and pei wen (pei wei) at 9am...
but i woke up at 9 plus... haha! with the help of yan lings call... at least i woke up earlier than usual cause i dont most of the tym... so i went to meet them at 10am ( according to pei weis entry) when i supposed to arrive perhaps 15 minutes after she called...
well we went swimming!! haha! i walked to swimming complex... or rather i was strolling my way there! it been a long tym since i got myself into a pool... to be actual the last tym i got into a pool was half a year and 2 days ago... i had no intention to swimming... but then ling brought extra swimming costume... so i wore it... that was when i realised something... when you support it, it looked presentable and nice... when its without suppose its totally a LETDOWN!!(im sure wen and ling understand what im talking about!) i looked so... argh! haha!
we three girls had so much fun playing with the two girls in the changing cubicle! they pushed the swimming costume into the cubicle where wen was changing in... and so we three got real nasty we kicked it back... jees! we three paraded through the whole pool... as if!
i ws the first to jump into the pool! oh holy! its so cold! haha! we went to the baby pool to revive our childhood tym... we played the slides, mushroom corner and the fake waterfall ... then we saw this little boy whos so kawaii... haha! we went into the deep pool... that was when the piggyback thing started! haha! we did the double piggybacking... the posture was disgusting! haha! after that we went to the top deck for sun tanning session! haha! it was so hot...
again... we went back into the pool... as i couldnt swim... i decided to wait for the girls while they have fun having one last lap... stupid... a groups of guys were laughing at my direction... ('-'!!)
after that we washed up.. we went to long john silver... yanling that guy not bad! hes cute... jiayou! go for it! after that we headed home...

yesterdays entry:

thats me and PEI WEI!! oops! my bad...this was taken at Rebeccas house... so fun!ok! i looked as though im acting cute... well.. haha! thats Derick on the left hand side... Hui zhuang in the middle and Zhan jie at the side... its so fun! i love dancing!

(X(00)X)

2006-04-13T19:15:00.000-07:00

its afternoon...

well... your facial expression showed it all...

he didnt tell you i was in NA during that one year plus... so you assumed i was in express?
or rather you thought i was his classmate... well... thanks for that! but sad to say im not his classmate... just because you didnt know im secondary five now... you assumed he stayed back because of me? you must be thinking that im a bad girl... well... nothing much i can say...
think what you want... all i can say is... im hurt!

chiaw khim... thanks! i like your chinese name! 郭朝钦...
so nice!
(X(00)X)

2006-04-11T21:44:00.001-07:00

its night...

we were that close... less then 30cm apart...
you popped one nutty question... it was so funny...
that im still laughing at it after hours... haha! you never fail to greet me or talk to me when you see me... thats so sweet of you... like i said... guys in uniform look smart...
haha! im happy!!=)

(X(00)X)

2006-04-11T21:44:00.000-07:00

2006-04-07T22:26:00.000-07:00

its night...

my eyes were darting at that particular direction...
i couldnt help it... i wonder if its purely curiosity or what ever so...
i cant figure out either... or rather i dont want to... you changed... i changed...
whats next? im exhausted...

wednesdays entry:

thats Kenneth... Naufal... Samuel... Muhaimin...(left to right) all well dressed... posing in the hall!

thats Amarpreet... Mariah... Peiwen... me...
thats so fun... we took one whole hour to get all dressed upin the toilet! girls are forever like that...

one snap before we get ready to perform...
we are standing in such a way that our dancing partner is next to us...

hello! i wasnt even paying attention!
awww... i look radioed(retarded)
i wonder what was i thinking... or looking at?
im must be thinking about the competition held right after performance...

(X(00)X)

2006-03-31T19:41:00.000-08:00

its evening...

its contradicting... its mysterious...
im falling for it... you dont see it but you can feel it...
its awesome...

(X(00)X)

2006-03-30T21:28:00.000-08:00

its night...

i have learnt:

- whats hate
- motivation comes within oneself
- leave no room for regrets
- never take parents for granted
- stop wearing a mask
- set your goals right
- control your emotions dont let them take control
- the past dont equal to the future

Gary the banana... Amin the mina... Chuan Lay (vivian) the music man... Wayne the magic man who never fail to amuse me...

i dont know why... its weird... i tried talking to you... but then...
its just weird... i dont know how to tell you...
seriously i regret telling you that... well its ok...
over reacting? perhaps...

(X(00)X)

2006-03-26T18:52:00.000-08:00

its evening...

Lydia are you sure? is this what you want?
theres not turning back... what you said cant be taken back...
its for real... hurt so badly... what you feel now isnt as bad as what hes feeling...
the pain that he feels is double yours or even more... confused? whats holding you back?
get over it Lydia! move on! hes so nice to you... so sweet... listens to what you have got to say... put in the effort to make you smile... what more do you want?!
slap yourself awake will you?

thank you... you made me feel like a princess... you are the best! im so so so sorry...

who bothers to listen to my problems? who will be there? i dont know...
im so confuse now... no use crying...

(X(00)X)

2006-03-23T21:53:00.000-08:00

its night...

all right... if thats the case... nothing to say...
im fuming mad... so stop asking... im controlling myself...

(X(00)X)

2006-03-23T21:01:00.000-08:00

its night...

i was using the lappy... and then i felt something crawling on my body...
first i felt it on my shoulder... the next moment it was at my butt...
hello?! i bet he or she is feeling desperate! it was so disgusting!=( turned me off!
i had to jump about before it gave up and drop on the floor... i screamed!
it looks like a cockroach... millipede... abit of those two... he or she is a mixed blood??
now the crawling feeling is still there... am i scaring myself or is there more than one insect around me?

phew... i thought dad would scold me for my bill.. well! he didnt!=)

ck... im sorry! oops! next tym then i meet you ok?=)
(X(00)X)

2006-03-22T19:06:00.000-08:00

its evening...

fuming mad! what the nana!

(X(00)X)

2006-03-21T22:22:00.000-08:00

its night...

i blogged...

(X(00)X)

2006-03-18T12:25:00.000-08:00

its afternoon...

im in pain... the gastric thingy is getting me in my nerves...
it has been bugging me since last night... and i had a dream that i was pregnant and the foetus who was in my womb was killing me... phew! it was only a dream... and then i realised the dream i had had something to do with my gastric pain... i was in pain since i was in lala land!?
oh man! i just so pissed!

(X(00)X)

2006-03-17T20:38:00.001-08:00

its night...

you greeted me... thats so polite of you!

(X(00)X)

2006-03-17T20:38:00.000-08:00

its night...

ive updated!

(X(00)X)

2006-03-16T14:37:00.000-08:00

its afternoon...

i was chatting online... and then my granny asked me to answer the door...
two policemen standing at my door... shocked! the policeman who was talking to me has got a cute look... haha! he had a bashful smile on his face... haha! what a policeman! i think its hes first tym doing household interview...

me : hello!
policeman: good morning! i mean afternoon!
me : erm... yup?
policeman: oh i just want to check with you if anything weird happen recently?
(he has got the short tongue accent! that made him sound even cuter!)
me : nope! its peaceful here!
policeman: can you write down your contact number?
me : here you go! (wrote on the paper he passed...)
policeman: all right! thanks alot! (smiling bashfully still... off he go!)
me : okay! you take care!

thats was the end of our conversation!=) haha!
i dont know why! guys in uniform look do smart!
nice nice!

(X(00)X)

2006-03-15T18:16:00.000-08:00

its afternoon...

i woke up in the afternoon... saw one missed call... as a result i missed my POA remedial... Choir(didnt really want to go! oops!)...
had brunch cause i missed my breakfast tym... never mind... whats the use of attending choir when Peiwen isnt there... so im not that sad when i missed my choir session... haha!
so tired!
horrible horrible! you baddie! shouldnt have let them got hold of your handphone...
but nevermind what done can be undone... haha! here's something for you... *arbish!* haha! i like!=X

heres a song to all... (just imagine that im singing it... oops!)
Purest Of Pain by Son By Four

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you
But I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
And so I surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live without you
And maybe someone else is standing there beside you
But there's something baby that you need to know
That deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking

Chorus
Baby, give me back my fantasies
The courage that I need to live
The air that I breathe
Livin' without you, my world's become so empty
My days are so cold and lonely
And each night I taste the purest of pain

I wish I can tell you that I'm feeling better everyday
that I didn't hurt when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
That deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you, it's all that I'm asking

Baby, give me back my fantasies
The courage that I need to live
The air that I breathe
Livin' without you, my world's become so empty
My days are so cold and lonely
And each night I taste the purest of pain

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you
But I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
And so I surrender just to hear your voice

(X(00)X)

2006-03-15T01:40:00.000-08:00

its night...

i spent my day like this....

Morning:
i was busy picking out clothes to wear for the chalet... mum was scolding me for not dolling up like how a girl should... oops!

afternoon: cab there... again! dishonest cabby!!! cheated me!! haha! its ok! i believe in retribution... went for bowling session with jasmine cherie rebecca huzali rahim muhaimin farhan(cup) akif(if im not wrong!) and irwan... ate mcdonald with amarpreet wenhui mariah and peiwen... went cycling at pasir ris park... the very last tym i cycled the two rider thing was three or two years ago with jun hao... this tym i cycled with wenhui... she had a hard tym man!
cause i cant balance so she had to cycle and balance at the same tym...=)
the five of us cycled past a muscular guy... oh my goodness! hes really muscular...
so mariah came up with this mad idea of ringing our bells when we zoomed past him...
we went ring ring ring... laughing our hearts out! slacked awhile and then we went back to our chalet... tym to set up barbequeing stuffs...

night: two teachers came... Mdam Lee and Miss Cheong (lao jiang)... so happy!=)
started barbequeing... took some pictures with Farhan the cup... muhaimin... jasmine... rebecca... faiza( S)... have not seen the pictures yet... after eating...
we had a water bomb war... all right! i know we were wasting water... but couldnt help it... it was so fun! filled up bags of water bombs... throwning here and there... so fun! every single one of us was dripping wet...=) entered the chalet room... i was curious about the key and so i meddled with the key which was linked to the whole rooms electric system... oops! my bad! the guys were busily playing Xbox... they were playing so happily... because i remove the key from its original place, the whole room blacked out... fareez who was in the toilet shouted... the boys playing xbox went 'ahhh!! lydia...' my bad! jees... so i apologised and they laughed... phew! nothing happened! bidded goodbye to those at the chalet... Jianbin (Xige) was being lame... he asked me to call him once i reach home to show that im safe and sound...=) and i did... way before i went off we were crapping about who would want to rape me... haha! i took 15 minutes to hug those girls there... this is how we bid good bye! haha! next i went to the beach with kenneth jiaying chenghao and amarpreet... it was so dark... reminded me of my seal sports camp which happened to be around there... feel the sea water under my feet... looked at the brightly lit ships over at the other side of the sea.. so fun! chenghao thanks for washing my slippers for me... going to the beach just reminds me of orange and me...
it was during the seal sports camp... we were talking about the ships and we were looking at the sky leaning side by side... drawing heart shape won the sand with our name inside... so sweet and romantic! cant blame it cause we are both libras...
after going to the beach... kenneths dad picked us up... bid good bye to amarpreet jiaying and chenghao... kenneth opened the back seat door... so i thought he wanted to enter first... who knows he signalled me to get in first... and so i refused as i thought if his dad were to drive me home... i would be alighting first and so i should sit near the door... so we both were like 'you faster enter la! aiyo! you go first!' i didnt want to waste my tym asking him to get in first and so i entered... next thing i know... he closed the door without sitting... i went 'huh?'... and then he sat in the front seat... then i realised he was being polite by opening the door and closing the door for me... ('-'!!) haha! so hes dad talked to me about what are my plan after O level... so we blabbed soon i reached home!=) the end...

(X(00)X)

2006-03-14T07:57:00.000-08:00

2006-03-14T01:10:00.000-08:00

it night...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QIAN YING SWEETIE! YOURE ONE YEAR OLDER NOW! LOVE YOU!
sorry for leaving early!

tired! i dont feel good... as expected im down with fever... aww...
i had so much fun at the chalet... its been centuries since i last popped by Escape...
Huzalis sun tan lotion didnt work on me and cherie... didnt work on him either...
we were standing under at places where theres sun...
never mind at least i had my first try on sun tanning... weird people do weird stuff!
we were busily snapping shots here and there but then nothing came out great!
in the bus... while waiting for rides... everywhere...

i went for the pirate ship... sat at the far end... it was fun... i had to imagine mariah as someone that i dont like...
i wanted to hug her so badly... all right! i was scared! i was screaming so badly... that i was so thirsty! but im happy because i screamed all my stress away...
next... i tried the wet and wild ride with cherie... we were thinking of ways to pose when we see the camera... oops! she sat in front while im sat the back... we went real crazy because we scream way before getting splashed! after the first splash... i was already wet... she looked so dry...
i had the idea of changing seat with cherie... of cause i didnt... the second splash was the funniest one... i covered my mouth when we were 15 metres high! i wanted to scream! if only you saw cheries expression!(of cause i didnt see either! she took the front seat... if i were to see her expression can you imagine? im no god! i dont want to die at such a young age! theres no space for me since shes taking the front seat!('-'!!) ) i imagined her expression because she told me she swallowed a gulp of the dirty water as she was screaming! haha! aww! thats was hilarious!
shall stop here!=)

(X(00)X)

2006-03-09T20:34:00.000-08:00

its evening...

what the nana! he wrote me a testimonial... first tym man!
i guess he must be feeling so bored at home... thats why he wrote me a testimonial...
haha! to think i wrote one for him! he write no more than ten lines...
giving the excuse that he lives under the same roof as me thats why nothing much to write...
('-'!!) at least he wrote one... oh man! why am i so demanding?? at least its not some kind of nonsense... better than nothing! haha!

(X(00)X)

2006-03-08T18:37:00.000-08:00

its evening!

aww.... you are just so cute and sweet to be with!
i miss you too! you rock my world!

(X(00)X)

2006-03-04T11:12:00.000-08:00

Tonight it's very clear
As we're both lying here
There's so many things i wanna say
I will always love you
I would never leave you alone
Sometimes I just forget
Say things I might regret
It breaks my heart to see you cryin'
I don't wanna lose you
I could never make it alone
I am the man who would fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you're dreamin' of
We'll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love
You keep me standing tall
You helped me through it all
I'm always strong when you're beside me
I have always needed you
I could never make it alone
I am the man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you been dreamin' of
We'll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love
LIke a knight in shining armor
From a long time ago
Just the time I'd save the day
Take you to my castle far away
I am the man who would fight for your honor
I'll be the hero that you're dreamin' of
Gonna live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the Glory of Love
We'll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the Glory of Love
We did it all for love...

2006-03-03T10:58:00.000-08:00

its night...

on wednesday...
i was so tired... had a hard tym guiding the secondary one in ACM...
the kids from our school are pretty smart... they are hyper active!
but short concentration span... i was screaming here and there with peiwen...
luckily i know the technique of shouting... if not i bet i would have suffered badly from sore throat... the whole guiding session wasnt that bad because on our way home in the bus provided by school, the Japanese whom were in the another bus right beside us waved at us...
oh my god! they looked so cute! imagine someone

on thursday...
went for a KFC session... was there slacking...
and then hui zhuang and i saw hui min... so we chatted... and then we ended up chatting with a old lady! she needs someone to talk to...

(X(00)X)

2006-03-02T22:27:00.000-08:00

its night...

warmth... your smile leave such a deep impression on me...
im sad... i wont deny... cause soon i will miss that smile...
i will miss you...
a smile hides a thousand tears thats what Honsonn said...

(X(00)X)

2006-02-27T23:11:00.001-08:00

its night...

i cried hard last night... i thought i lost you!
i was like a lunatic! i kept mumbling 'where the hell are you!'
i bet you didnt know how much you mean to me...

(X(00)X)

2006-02-26T14:55:00.000-08:00

click this --> Superwoman!

Early in the morning, I put breakfast at your table
一夜都沒睡但我不曾如此清醒
我早餐準備了妳　愛吃的東西
這次換我等妳被咖啡的香味叫醒
想要找回每天早晨　對我微笑著的妳
還能夠　做些什麼代替我的歉意
總是望著我小心翼翼順著我呼吸
而我竟然理所當然　讓妳精疲力盡
You were my superwoman
安靜的在身邊　無條件給我　夢寐以求的溫柔
But I am only human
我怎麼不懂妳多寂寞　殘忍的犯了錯不能失去妳

Ooh—Babe--- You fought your way through the rush hour
Try to make it home just for me
月光下靜靜靠著彼此　只求夜長一點
有多久沒有好好看妳　只是認定了我
無論在什麼時候回頭　都有妳的笑容
是我忽略了妳也會有　想要哭的感覺
沒有一種付出應該永遠心甘情願
再給被寵壞的男人最後一次機
會換我忍耐換我等待　不要真的棄權

(---Baby)是我把愛想得太簡單以為只要我存在
就能讓妳取暖心裏唯一的superwoman 沒有人能代替
不能想像更不能原諒這樣讓愛化成　灰燼
If you feel it in your heart and you understand me.
STOP right where you are, everybody sing along with me.

he can touch my heart with this song... can you?

if you cant view chinese words... go to the view icon and then go to the encoding section...
and then change it to unicode...=)

(X(00)X)

2006-02-26T00:31:00.000-08:00

its night..

early in the morning... i saw desmond on the bus on his way to NPCC campcraft competition... he was waving to me and peiwen...
what a morning wave! i went K boxing right after choir today... it was so fun!!
we were high! what? there were Derrick... Pei Wen... Hao Cheng... Yong Shuang... Zhan Jie... Samantha... its so fun!! haha! we sang like hell...
miss tan peiwen broke the glass.. haha! i bet she had the shock of her life...
and mister derrick drop his plate of rice... thats so funny!
we were jumping about! serious jumping about... we were at the top of our lungs!
people whom walked pass look into our room... we basically brought the whole Kbox to life!
it was so ghastly dead when we were there... we sang together in unison... no no! in different tones which produced a wonderful disastrous cord... jees! but i just love it!
we scared the soul out if the K guy who came in to bill us... the K guy who took our order was great! hes so funny! oh lydia! we were so na naly noisy that i passed him the microphone to take our orders... we did crazy actions when he took our order... like we would raise hands for the drinks we want... thats crappoly lame... isnt it? we actually invited zhen xian for the k session though he has to pay for his own share...
what a invitation huh! in the end he couldnt make it.. thats so sad... but i believe theres always a chance to! we were twisting left and right in the room ... up and down... great workout...

we sang:
ni zui zhen gui... daniel chan and regina
ming ming hen ai ni... ping guan and fish leong
hao xin fen shou... candy lo and lee hom
at the beginning... richard mark and girl

true love... tanya chua
hei se mao yi... jay chao
huo yuan jia... jay chao
xin guang... s.h.e
tian hui... s.h.e
yi shi de mei hao... zhang shao han
tian hei hei... stephanie sun
waiting for you... hu yan bin
high high high... zhang hui mei
bu pa bu pa... guo mei mei
c'est si bon... 5566
wo nan guo... 5566
wei yi... lee hom

thats all i remember... what a day! now i can hardly sing... im losing my voice... aww... what a price to pay...
(X(00)X)

2006-02-18T17:36:00.000-08:00

its afternoon...

i was chatting with farhan suhaimin... i was telling him what i was going through...
well.. we blabbed! im kinda sad... i was talking to him about love...
haha! other than that... we blabbed in cup language... haha!

well thats what i call RETRIBUTION...
you let him steal your heart away...
leaving the guy whom you were with lost and hurted...
and next thing meanie cupids disrupted your love life after a year plus...
keep casting you with loves that made you cried...
soon you realised you were behaving like a fool..
when you try to shut the door of love...
it just opens unexpectedly...
within a heartbeat... you fall into the cycle again...
and then you realised love aint that easy afterall...
its comes when it wants to... not when you ask it to...

aww... im going crazy...

(X(00)X)

2006-02-15T21:40:00.000-08:00

its night...

i was trying my best to stay happy... but i couldnt!!!
its so pissing! i tried to be positive with my thoughts..
but to no avail! i dont see why should i bother trying to keep myself high anymore...
the more i try... the more stupid i look...
dont tell me 'your happiness lies in your hand' well! its all crap!
it doesnt... its more like the more you yearn for it the more you dont get it...

lost and embarassed...

thanks for the gifts you guys gave... greatly appreciated!!
well i was hoping i would get a gift from someone else...
but i guess i was thinking too much... diaoz!

(X(00)X)

2006-02-11T18:42:00.000-08:00

bad bad morning!

roses? give me black rose... white rose... cause i like both of them...
is there white rose in the first place?
get me perfume... cause its helps to knit a better relationship for you and me...
buy me stuff toys if you want it to be thrown into the dust bin...
shower me with love letters so i can compare it with those that i have in my possession...
rest assured that i wont keep them if i dont feel for you...
sing me a song and i will remember in my heart... doesnt matter if you go off pitch...
its sincerity that counts...

(X(00)X)

2006-02-10T22:25:00.000-08:00

its night...

well... today i was really motivated to study after seeing their results... though i dont know how long will the motivation going to last... there were weeps and laughters!

CONGRATS TO SOTONG JELYNN FADHILLAH HONSONN XAVIER BOON!!!
you guys made it!

to those whom did not do that well... smile! im sure theres always other ways out!=)

(X(00)X)

2006-02-07T19:53:00.000-08:00

its night...

so stressed! sigh! i felt so paiseh when i saw him... oh man!
ah ling and kelvin whats that expression on your faces suppose to mean?=X
you meanies!!!

went choir... i dont know whats up with jiji... haha!
out of sudden he was treating us so good as though nothing had happened...(-_-!!)
walked home with georgina... central park was bananaly windy!
so strong that i took my tym to walk home with her...
haha! I FEEL THE WIND...
diaoz...

(X(00)X)

2006-02-06T20:57:00.000-08:00

im smiling... is it it is for real? who cares?
i dont know... dots man! im crapping!
STRESSED!

(X(00)X)

2006-02-05T11:09:00.000-08:00

its morning...

im dont feel good today... though its only three sentences... at least i blogged!

(X(00)X)

2006-02-04T22:58:00.000-08:00

its night...

torned apart... its so sad... i dont feel good...
im hurt... or was it my fault that i took it too seriously?
damn! i cried so hard last night... not that hard actually... enough to finish two box of tissue...
though you dont know a single thing...
i feel so embarrassed now... tym will heal the pain...
(X(00)X)

2006-02-02T20:39:00.000-08:00

its night...

i was late for school today! what the na na... if only i was guai enough to keep myself awake at 6.30am... as usual... i entered dreamland the moment i off my handphones alarm!
and i woke up at 7.05am! i rushed like mad! i didnt really shower... im rushed through everything... got out of my house at 7.10am... waited for the lift... which was stuck at 11th floor...
and when it arrived on the 6th floor... THERE WASNT ANYONE! dang! i was so pissed why did the banana lift stuck for nearly 2 minutes on the 11th floor... and not even a single soul was there
when it reached 6th floor... and by then i knew i was going to be late! all thanks to the lift!
i started running the moment i was out of the lift... i ran as though there was no tomorrow...
dang! the side gates were closed... Mr Tan was standing next to the gate yet he did not opened it for me!
i looked retarded standing outside! since he did nothing i chose to stand outside trying my best to look sart!
cause i wasnt the only one late...=) finally the gate was opened... Mr Tan started crapping...
shooting me ('even prefect also late ah!') that was pretty sarcastic!(-.-!!)
i couldnt be bothered! as i wasnt the only goody student who was late!=)
he could have let us off since the morning assembly hasnt take place... its was only 7.17am ok!!
if we were to make our way to hall, we could have made it in tym of National Anthem... adn we wouldnt be considered late!!!
satisfied after confiscating our student pass... he shooed us! dang!
and we pissed! and national anthem was being played when we are a few steps away from the hall!
I PROMISED MYSELF NEVER TO GO BACK TO SLEEP AGAIN AFTER MY ALARM RINGS!

(X(00)X)

2006-02-01T22:30:00.000-08:00

fashion show?!
its cherie rebecca lydia qianying and jasmine whos in front!=)
tyra bank and gang? haha!

240ing to tampines after watching a quarter of Emily Rose...
climbing up the roof top... snapping here and there and getting scare over annonghaseyos cat Rusty...('.'!!)

i bet the driver thinks that we are mad cause we snapped here and there...
but we were bored in his cab... what the na na...
when we first on board, he asked 'going geylang ah?'
what the crap man!

whats up with lydia and peiwen?
i dont know... we looked happy dont we?

oh my lydia!
you see this cute chick here?
we spotted her in MRT on our way to annonghaseyos house...
i swear! it wasnt me who made her cried...

its us... me cherie peiwen jasmine ziting and rebecca... this is annonghaseyos rooftop!
it real windy up there... aww... romantic!
can you feel the love in broad day light?

what else can we do with a digital camera?
take your pictures?

who will date us on valentine day?
be mine? nah! im hungry for love!

(X(00)X)

2006-01-29T19:09:00.000-08:00

its evening!!!

happy chinese new year!!=)
muackies to all!! stay cute and sweet!
all the best in your love life...

(X(00)X)